For example, if my children are due home at 3.30 and they arent here on the dot, I am paceing the hallway thinking that something unspeakable must have happened. I worry if I am on a long journey without them that something is going to happen to me and they will be left without a mother. If we go somewhere new, I am more than likely panicking inside that they will get lost or there is a child snatcher about (todays society really doesnt help)
I know that part of this hysteria is just mum worry, being a mother, but I also know that for the most part, I really am irrational! I shouldnt pace one room to the other and my heart shouldnt be racing until those babies of mine walk back through that door. At one point i would be nervous for absolutely everything, school meetings, gp appointments, people just popping in for a cuppa. I knew it just wasnt usual to feel this nervous and so I decided to change. I learned some breathing techniques and changed my way of thinking. This is easier said than done for some I know, but for me it really works. Now if i start to feel anxious I close my eyes amd take slow deep breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth. I picture a blank canvas. This usually calms me down and then I can reason with myself. "You are being irrational, relax!!" "Think of all the people who go through this very situarion unphased, relax!!"
I am so lucky that I have been able to help myself. My main focus in life is my children and I never ever want them to feel that illogical panic. They are my absolute inspiration, I want to explore with them freely, take them to new places, seize oppurtunities and travel.
I am a mum. I can be whatever I want to be.